A Mother's Grief

Last night, all the stress of the last few weeks finally burst out of me and I sobbed and sobbed for about an hour. I felt like I was feeling the grief from all of the losses in my life to this point, but most of all, I felt the huge sense of loss and grief that Ling's mother must have felt when separated from her. I know of no deeper pain than losing a loved one, and I felt like I was in labor as wave after wave of this grief washed over me. I had been yelling at my family a lot all day (maybe all week), trying to get things done, and was feeling very guilty and sad about that, too, so last night I cried and cried while they all got in bed with me and held me. I feel better this morning, but the tears are still there, just under the surface of my eyelids.....